I haven’t written in a month

Tansy Bradshaw
2 min readNov 24, 2020

I haven’t written anything in a month, not on here…. or my novel. I would usually scold myself for not writing, but with the anxiety ‘holding pattern’ I had been in coming finally to a landing, it has taken me a month to process everything.

I have been off work as a library technician since March because of the pandemic.

Up until recently, I have been in a holding pattern because I would be sent emails and calls, with no one replying; and this led to 4 months of silence from my work. Now, excusing the fact it is a pandemic — it doesn’t take 4 months to reply to an email.

It was around four weeks ago that my boss finally got in contact with me because ‘We had a meeting with all ES (Educational Support) staff and I am going to have to lay off half my staff…. though I don’t know yet I would advise you look for another job.’

Just like that — I had had the bumpy landing that I had been expecting. There are a few other things that were said that have made this hard, but thankfully nothing to do with my disability.

A red sign with with writing that reads: for hire.
Photo by Clem Onojeghuo on Unsplash

But that brings up an interesting point, getting a new job with a disability. I am not saying that is impossible; it is just in my case it took me till I was 29 to get my first job. The jobs that are available for me are few and far between. When I got with a DSP (Disability Service…

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Tansy Bradshaw

Tansy is a neurodivergent writer living and working in Melbourne. Over her decade of writing they have written reviews, opinion pieces and feature articles.